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Me and buddy on our way to eat delicious BBQ. I’ll tell you all about it later. He is too handsome.
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Hello Austin Texas this is Nicole I just entered your vicinity and already it is all sorts of muggy out. I walked outside and the air disappeared from my lungs. Let’s see what else you have to offer because while your airport smells and looks incredibly clean, from above you look much too big.
On the air train to JFK and there is a couple pawing each other five feet away. I would take a picture but I am almost certain it’s illegal to photo this kind of thing without permission of the participants. I am hoping they are on the way to a honeymoon because it is making me want to vomit. I worked 9 hours and have a 3 hour wait then a 4 hour flight, I am a grumpy gal. Also shark week should start soon so forgive me Austin if I fail to appreciate your wonder.. I am a bitch.
I left the stuffed animals I sleep with at the inlaws and so now I will have to travel without them and sleep without them for 5 nights which I have never done in my life. The only other time I have forgotten them was the weekend my aunt died. I am having a panic attack at work and had to leave twice to cry in the bathroom. Buddy’s dad will not bring them to me at work even though I told him that the bear had money in it that I would need. I am flipping shit over here. I said I did not want to go on this trip and his dad has my car so I can’t drive to go get it. This is bullshit I tried to convince Buddy to tell his dad that it was important and so it would sound kind of him for looking out for me but he wouldn’t . Now I am screwed.
Had a dream that this Guido man slice was my boyfriend and everyone in my life was so confused. I am unbelievably pale and on the not super in shape spectrum of weight, but in my dream everyone was like “dj Pauly d how did you get such a beautiful lady”. But despite my physical attraction too him I thought he was clingy and he caught me crying because I just wanted Buddy to be my boyfriend instead. He was very offended but couldn’t stop love and so we parted as friends.
I am going to tell you guys a secret. I haven’t been wanting to go to Texas because if I don’t like it it will ruin a lot of things that Buddy’s employees have been working toward. Also I am worried if I don’t like it he will resent me always for stunting his growth. Also I wish he would just put a ring on it while we are there because it is a big leap we will be taking if we like it there and after 7 years together I think it would be a symbolic time to do it. But I know that is not going to happen and so I don’t really want to go. Food network and my elaborate daydreams have created an image of this experience and I am sure it is not going to live up to those.
Buddy and the other two guys left for Austin this morning and will be landing in an hour. I don’t leave until 8:50 tomorrow night so I can get in two extra work days while they check out buildings and do business things. I am in full panic mode I can’t sleep when he is not around and when I don’t know where my loved ones are I start unraveling. I have a live feed of my dad’s location on my phone and my mom isn’t working so she is just always home. Buddy says I am crazy which is true but it has gotten much worse since my aunt passed because I worry I’ll never get to say bye to people if something happens and I am always thinking the worst. The boys are staying in one hotel room and then tomorrow buddy and I check in to our own room. I know it’s only a day and a half but I can focus. I’m sleeping at the inlaws house tonight because I’ll be less likely to flip out with people around. I’m telling them it’s so I can leave my car there while I’m away. Ughhhhh make tomorrow come now.
Where are fun places to go and or eat in Austin???
